Goodbye John

It's been almost a month, and my brother-in-law did die. Things were really hard around here for a while. Still are in some ways. He would have turned 40 April 20th. I'm 40! Remember when 40 seemed so old? Now it seems so young. Something like this sure makes you consider your own mortality. And how everything can be over in a blink of an eye like it was with my Dad and John. One minute everything is fine, the next, it's over, and there's no real explanation. No warning. The suddenness is what is hardest.