So. I have a confession. I'm sitting here watching The Bachelor: The Women Tell All, and I'm a little ashamed of myself. I (usually) don't watch reality TV! I started watching The Bachelor during Ben's season. When he chose Lauren instead of Jo-Jo, I was soooo disappointed. So when I found out she would be the Bachelorette, I knew I would watch. And I did. Then Bachelor in Paradise.
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So. Moving on... Less than one week until spring break, and I. Can't. Wait. I have no specific plans except to see a couple of movies. I'll get to see my kids who will be home from college. I will gt to sleep as late as I want. That's the most important thing! Hahaha! No, of course the kids are, but sleep is a close second.
My house has a big hole in the kitchen roof. Our upstairs shower leaked and we had to get the rotten sheetrock off the celing. Trouble is, we don't know if we want to put the time and money into remodeling now, or just put a "bandaid" on it for now and remodel later. It's a tough decision. We may only be in this house for two or three more years. When all the kids are living on their own, we won't need all the space.
And now, Coffee Chat. Our hostess asks us...
Who do you miss?
Easily, without a single doubt in my mind, my father. I don't want to go into details because I have written about him and what happened several times. You can read about it here or here. This is a picture of me with my dad peeking out behind me. It was taken in 1986, I think. I was 21. He was the age I am now, 51.
My dad passed away unexpectedly in 2004. He wasn't sick. It was medically related, not an accident, but he was the picture of health one minute, and gong the next.
He was my hero and my rescuer. I loved him so much. Still do. I don't think I have gone through all of the stages of grief. I function better by being in denial. I'm just afraid that one day it is going to hit me so hard, I may end up in the crazy house. I miss him every single day.
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We aren't The Bachelor/Bachelorette fans but we have caught pieces of the show. These reality series we just can't get into. Oh, what a bummer to lose your pop's like that! My brother passed away in 2006 two months after his 40th birthday. That was really difficult to deal with, too. I found the only thing that helped in the days after my brother's death was to talk about him. It took months before the sting didn't hurt quite so much. I cried every time I thought about him. Although nowadays my heart tends to get a little heavy when I think about him, I mostly do a lot of smiling when he comes to mind. One day, I'll see him again and everyone else who's crossed over I love so until that time I'll just think about happy memories. I hope you can find a way to deal with the grief you still feel for yourself and for those who love you. Thanks for sharing such a tender post of who you miss. Have a good day and God bless!
ReplyDeleteI went back and read your earlier posts about your father, and it is easy for me to understand the grief you still feel and how much you miss him. I wrote about my mother, she would have turned 90 today, but died at 67. I miss her more than words can say. Writing about the cherished memories you shared with your dad brings him close again, and will make your heart smile. You were blessed to have had a dad like that. What a joyful reunion there will be some day.
ReplyDeleteI've never watched any reality TV shows and I know it's for the sole reason that I would get WAY WAY too obsessed. Like it would not likely be healthy in my case. HA. It would be like crack to me, so I tend to avoid them. But then I read in the magazines who they choose anyway. LOL
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry about your father - it must have been hard if it was a sudden thing. I don't think one can ever truly get over such a loss, we just learn to take it day by day.
OK, so I've had your comment window open for over a week, with the following comment waiting to be sent...heh! BLONDE MOMENT! I noticed it when I came back this morning to comment on *this* week's post... so here ya go - day late and a dollar short as always! Then I'll be off to *this* week's post! LOL!!
ReplyDeleteYou may or may not be happy to know that The Bachelor (and Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise) are my guilty pleasures. ;) Actually, it makes it easy to just have it playing on my other monitor while I'm working on my computer - then I don't feel so guilty...heh!! I can't wait to see who Nick chooses, too! I like both Vanessa and Raven - I feel bad one of them will be heartbroken at the end.
Your spring break is coming up fast! Glad your kids will be home from college so you can have some quality time with them - after you sleep in, of course. ;)
I don't think one ever gets over the loss of a parent - especially one that was taken too early. My hubby still misses his dad, who passed away in 2010. He gets a little melancholy around his dad's birthday and the day he passed - but says it does get better as time passes. ((HUGZ!!))